frustration

i am very frustrated at times with gernot.

he's really an ok kid but now he is starting to selectively listen to me.

today he wasn't in the mood to get on the tram so when the tram came and i pushed the button to get on he ran off and i got the stroller on but had to have someone help me get gernot on the tram and he totally flipped out....screaming his head off.

sometimes i think it is because his parents give him free range to do what he wants because he is 'special' but he is pretty much on par with other 3 year olds....listens and understands commands, speaks in sentences....he's not stupid....

then there is me with the time outs and taking away of things like his autos or trains and he fucking loses it.

just ranting i guess. today he pooped in his pants as i was talking to this nice potential new friend ans then he flipped out so we had to leave before i could give her my phone number.

i don't have a job where i work with other people....so it's hard to meet people this way....i have used as many resources online as humanly possible and nothing...save for the german stalker dude, but well, who wants to be friends with a weirdo stalker?

all i do now since moving into my new house is eating my three meals a day and sleeping....i went to bed at like 9 last night. i see myself doing the same thing again tonight.