then the subsequent phone call from mama

it wasn't bad but she reminded me of my own mother whereby when i bring up something i find that she did that was i dunno, just not cool or whatever, my mom always gets defensive.

odd isn't it?

i am the one that is usually pretty defensive (you can all laugh now) and this time around i just well, okay then....sure i am all these negative things. now dad didn't say anything negative to me except about one email i wrote otherwise he said only nice meaning things.

her on the phone kept telling me over and over how *OH NO* she told me to make rice and i made pasta. NOT PASTA. or how she said some shit that one morning gernot said to her he wanted to go to the zoo BUT I DIDN'T GO. OH NOES. it was fucking raining all that morning and well, she can go to the zoo in the rain without a car or whatever but i sure the fuck wasn't. then the rain cleared at like 1030 and it was getting late so i just took the boys to the river, which they LOVE!

the best part was the conversation about the accusatory tone of the email one night about wolframs FEVER. OH NOES KIDS GET SICK STOP THE PRESSES. so this morning on the phone she said 'the next morning at the doctors you were very upset' and i said because you sent me an email that said 'wolfram has a fever, how did this happen?'

sure it could be left to interpretation, i'll give it that much but seriously?

my art isn't good enough she said
there's not enough art around the house
(um maybe cause everyday there are at least 2 appointments. i am not sure when i am supposed to get in all this time to make tons of art to adorn her walls with but i do my best.....true i have been a slacker in the last couple weeks cause i have not been very satisfied...)

i think maybe if we had talked about some of these things when they happened things might be different. i have a feeling though it might not. i can go through my blog probably and find the instances where we HAVE talked and still find myself here.

oh and about her hanging up on me yesterday. she said that she isn't so into having her cell phone like me and joachim are. i said that has nothing to do with it. she said when i wasn't at track or at home she was worried gernot had a seizure and i logically told her that had he had a seizure then if she had her phone on then she would have learned of this......she said 'you were so mad, ' then changed it and said 'we were both so mad' and i said in my mind "FINALLY" you admitted to being mad or something.

so anyhow.

we are meeting on thursday the three of us. i said i would have the meeting so that we can make a list of things that we expect from people. joachim said something interesting this morning. he said that he and tamara are not used to dealing with people they are only used to dealing with numbers and this is pretty true. so i know that it's not all me and at least he was man enough to say it. the meeting should prove interesting.

i really hope they don't F up my myriad of plans already in place for the poland and berlin. i really really am looking forward to all of it, especially the AK 47 shooting!

:-)