spartacus

my friend dave lost his cat sparty and i wanted to tell him i was sad for this loss. he wasn't even a year old! he was a really funny cat and very cute...i am sad i won't get to see him again!

maybe i am desensitized to loss. i think i am. loss doesn't really bug me so much. i think it's hard to lose things of course but i was kind of insensitive to dave about it and i apologize!

it's hard to know what to say, for me, to those that lose people....animals....

i don't like to say i am sorry because it's not my fault but i am sorry that the person has to be in such pain over it. if that makes sense.

part of the reason is that so many people have told me they are sorry for me. i know why people say it but it's weird just the same. i apologize a lot for things that i really know i shouldn't be apologizing for. i do however know more about when to and when not to apologize....it's so easy to say 'i'm sorry' because we might not have any other way to express our feelings of sympathy....

i was and am still thinking a lot about coming home and give a shout out to paul and sarah for letting me 'come home'.

i am lucky and grateful.

i know times are tough around the globe (i just typed lobe so that sort of works too) but we should be glad we have our wits and friends.....support and recognition...connections and communication....

i thought i didn't have anything to say before. i guess i do.