being open

is there something wrong with not wanting anything serious but also wanting serious without being held down by a monogamous standard?

i feel great connections and love to some people and isn't it okay for this to occur....depends on perceptions.

there is a certain balance to being able to care for and love all kinds of people. there are so many great folks in the world. i am beholden to no one but myself, my ideas and my theories.

there are so many things i want to write about but sometimes i hold back because i am not sure how some would take it.

being free in relationships doesn't make someone a hooker or just in it for lots of sex. it's about really connecting with people and them with you and finding the things that you enjoy about one another. there can be things others can also give us that others cannot i guess is what i mean to say. there is something to be gained from anyone if we care to give it a chance to grow if there is that 'connection'.

a long time ago i was just always feeling very strongly for one person and now i feel strongly for many people for many different reasons.

i learned this last summer. i learned the hard way and i learned the easy way. i learned to open myself up to the possibility (thanks ginna) of knowing for myself that it was cool to be able to lend myself and my life to different people.

people have expectations, sometimes people don't communicate enough, maybe some just don't really care to communicate and think that by action alone they can be understood (false in my humble opinion).

being open like i am really means baring a lot of parts of me that people shy away from. i don't mean to be so open sometimes knowing how people react to it. this is okay because i am used to it by now. i want to be able to be wholly real and wholly me with no precondition, no expectation just that i am interesting to be around, that i am funny or whatever the hell else makes people want to be around people they like.

what does it mean to be truly free?