i think i let something go last night

in my dream. i have been thinking about dreams, well, a long time but yesterday i read a great deal about lucid dreaming. i thought last night was a good insane peacefully crazy dream.

i was going to DC to have a meeting with sarah and paul. they brought sarah's brother steve and his wife em and their kids. henry and cat were there. everyone was late. brian came with his friend leanne (who i have never met) as well as corey.

on one side there was a big table and the families sat there and brian leanne corey and i sat at this other table. there were other people at our table but i have no idea who they were. corey ended up leaving because it was too crowded and he went to sit with the family table.

brian's friend kept asking me if i lived in the north corridor and i kept being really mean to her telling her that DC wasn't divided in corridors but quadrants. brian kept sneaking around the back of this rather large woman to hold leanne's hand. while we were talking i made some kind of off handed remark....i wish i could remember because then i was scared. the waiter came over and said i should pay attention because he just had a sister that died who's name was michelle (is that whose or who's?).

so then leanne asked brian who i was obviously a very disruptive rude person apparently in this dream and brian told her. i then smiled and laughed and told leanne i was sorry for being a jerk and that i was just testing her because it was obvious that brian enjoyed her and so this made me happy and that i thought she was actually very nice and that i didn't mean to be so rude. then i took my phone and texted brian (who was sitting at the same table) that i was very happy for him.

(this is where the peace came)

then after this we all got our food but no one got their beers. i had ordered some weird kind of cider. we were all a little annoyed about no beers so i wandered inside to see what was going on with that. some waitress said 'she is coming to ask about the beer' and this tall waiter approached me and i was getting irate and then this old black man was behind the bar making the drinks from scratch....out of tubes and barrels. the waiter who i was yelling at told me that i would get mine (much like the waiter outside)

(maybe i have been thinking a lot about 'what goes around comes around')

meanwhile corey opted to not sit with the family either and ended up at a karaoke table with flashing lights and singers/dancers.

there are some things i don't think i want to reprint....some really f'd up shit that went down. after that i was getting ready to take my flight back to schweiz and my bra broke and the strap hit me and i didn't feel it.

corey also told me to go back and inform the waiter that i was sorry for being so rude. (dude, am i really that rude?)

i got in a taxi and went to east dallas type hood and there was this 7-11 and a man kissing a woman very passionately next to a car that was surrounded by luggage and money....when they were done kissing i got a look at her and she was the same girl on this poster at the store who was raising donations to go to a school in africa because she was so smart.

on my walk back to find corey and to get my things to fly i encountered brian and leanne on swings in a dark park without a lot of light.