mumbo jumbo-for tullejente

we know certain things are coming.
so we prepare. maybe a wisdom tooth has to come out...we prepare for this.

i know i am leaving so i am mentally and emotionally preparing for this.

some have said i shouldn't put too much effort into it and just deal with it when it comes. i am sure i will be doing a bit of this too.

when i listen to certain music i think of my friends at home, i think of my family....i think of the new music i have learned about here and who turned me onto it.

i am really going to miss it. all the same, in a couple years, i could very well have a handy associates degree (small steps people) and then the kids will be in school...i think full time almost by then.....it's not as if i can't ever come back.

then i can also make my friends come visit DC.

louis said an interesting thing. that there are some things he's surprised i know about but then other things i am completely lost.

this is what i mean when i say things like 'i should have learned that when i was smaller' not that it matters now. what matters is that i am open to learning about it, about myself, about when i fuck up and when i make good....