strong vs. weak

sometimes i know how strong i am. i know i have weathered so much bullshit.

sometimes i know i can be weak. it is now possible for me to feel myself becoming weak in some regards. so instead of 'being' weak i am working through it to make myself stronger.

there's been something that has been making me waver between weak and strong. i take a big deep breath, remember who i am and realize that i am better off being strong about it instead of weak.

though i am still weak. i still....want people to know they hurt me. not as horribly as before in my life but i still think i have to make a point to tell people at least my feelings on the subject.

oddly this time it just stings. it isn't so much severe pain as it is just a paper cut.

i know this might not make much sense to anyone but i guess it does to me so that's important!

so i am tough.....tough as nails. just TRY to fight me!