still a bit nervous

i am still a bit nervous....though i think i will be able to manage the rest of the work time here. i suppose i just can't do that to the kids....

i only have to see her in the mornings and a bit in the evening.

i told her i had 'stress induced illness' which is semi truthful.
i am making myself sick with worry.

someone isn't talking to me much this week which makes me sad....i keep bugging them so today i won't do any bugging.

it's all just about pulling away, pushing people out.....trying to not feel as much pain...whenever i think about it i start crying....

it's been rainy and gloomy here all week too so i am sure that's not too helpful. maybe the sun will come out tomorrow...feels like when everyone in DC was talking about all the rain!

i am receiving much support and am grateful for it.

thanks peoples!