good lord woman

not me, the mommy!

before i had any coffee in my belly this AM she says to me 'i think wolfram woke up all night because you didn't spend any time alone with him' and i am thinking, 'is this what i want to wake up to?'

i mean, i know kids. i really know them. i love them. i work with them. they are my fucking life, right?

one day i suck with them, yesterday they come home and are happy the kids are happy. then this AM she says that this weekend i am to work with just wolfram and bond to him more and i said 'i already made plans to leave' and she says i should change them and that this is the last time i have to really spend with him alone while she is here.

*bingfucking-o*

while she is here, wolfram won't even go near me, let alone play with me in some other room of the house. this is the way the kids are. she spoils the shit out of them and this is how they have been reared from babies.

i'll say now that it's much better for me when they are NOT here.

that's the only way i have freedom.

so i got defensive of course (like i wouldn't right?) and said that there are a lot of other reasons he was up all night and she argues with me (i STILL hadn't had my morning smoke either) that it is me that is causing him to wake up.

i started laughing and excused myself and went outside.

i got gernot and took him to his play group and when we got back i said it would be best to not bring this shit up with me when i have not had my coffee yet.

she also said she was being too nervous about leaving her kids with me.
(from the mouth of a woman who also said to me that she wouldn't trust her kids with anyone else)

people are weird but this shit is going to get on my nerves even more if it occurs on a daily basis.....

i know it sounds like i am complaining but i am resolute and confident in my abilities with kids. i am the pied fucking piper of children right?

jeesh, just shut up and let me do my job. her job is MOM mine is not.

i am here to look after them, feed them, sing to them and play with them, to take them to their appointments and to teach them english.....

then she said this morning too that her whole paycheck will be going to me and that she thinks i will be making too much money.

sometimes i think she will work the first week and hate her job and want to be back home with the kids.

if so then i suppose i will travel until i am broke and then come home.
i do have to remember to have a 'back up' plan if she does this.

jeesh!

sorry if it sounds complaining...i am not, just venting i suppose!

toodles.
off to the post office