meesh passes inspection

so there i was all the things were put away...just me sitting in a chair in my empty flat.

waiting at 11. promptly on time of course the bell rang!

the lady was older, gray, skinny and all she said was guten tag and shook my hand. was totally silent and got out her clip board and all these papers!

i was freaking out on the inside.

when she opened the fridge that was the only time i spoke and said 'i did mention about the freezer door and i wasn't sure if i was to unplug the freezer to thaw it out' she only nodded and kept on running about writing stuff down.

at the end she wanted me to sign something and before i did, i asked 'so can you explain this to me?'

she said 'oh it's fine, you'll get your deposit back in full'

i almost cried but bit the inside of my mouth so hard so that i wouldn't.

a big sigh

put on my pack, got my bag and other bag so many bags.
off i went to the SBB and to zurich.

i am not so exhausted. i am not as much tired as i am emotionally drained maybe.

being at this flat in zurich is making me a bit emotional....just the whole business of how things ended with tamara and joachim doesn't sit all that well with me. some things i guess just don't work out. hopefully in time we all can look back on the lessons of it.