talk with mom

i talked with mom today.
it was good and i feel like i will probably keep my job.

it's a lot to do with trust. i know they trust me with their kids. why on earth would they want me to heave up my life in the states to come here?

sometimes i think it has more to do with guilt....not on my end of course. i have my own weird reasons for feeling guilty.

i think i will set up a flicker account for my photos so that those of you who want can just go view them there but not tonight.

i am some how very tired this evening and i had a short work day!

i am currently trying to plan the next trips!

zurich next weekend....it's easy and only an hour away....besides i like it there....it's a bit bigger than basel and more things are open on sundays!

and my pal has a washer and dryer so it will be like 'going home' to do laundry though i think i might sneak a wash in tomorrow!

i keep thinking about people, about life.

about who i am and what i want in this world. i keep moving....changing.....i feel so alone at times but not alone....

i know there are things about me that are not well, normal....but i never professed that i was normal in any vague sense of the word.

i learn by doing and see things with my own perception.

i learn too through the eyes of others....i hope to gain a better understanding of the world by meeting as many people as i can...by sharing stories....reading books....absorbing life.